Sometimes, things make me want to go into a fetal position then either disappear or cry. Tell me a list of what does this to you or share a story about a situation that did. Either way, I'd be glad to hear it.

Here's my list: - fighting with close friends (see live journal entry) - my mother when she's drunk - seeing an animal that's hurt or being harmed - boyfriends - breakups - thinking about my real father - being blamed for something I didn't do - being backstabbed - being manipulated - failing anything

-- Heather (chiana@insert.nu), July 13, 2001

Answers

-- thinking about what i did last december/january -- thinking about all that i have lost in the past year -- thinking about what i could have accomplished, and didnt -- thinking about losing my lover

-- amber (amber@enigmatic.org), July 13, 2001.

Sometimes I feel so lost and try to hint that I need some direction, but no one ever does help. Also when I can't sleep even though I'm so tired, or when it seems like the world is mad at me.

-- Rosie (pixie@winded.net), July 13, 2001.

Thinking about all the stupid things I've done in the past. I'm the worst when it comes to dwelling on past mistakes. :P

-- Cyn (cyn@cyn.ca), July 13, 2001.

when my dad screams at me and says that what i do is not enough, and feeling as though the people I love are really conspiring against/manipulating me.

-- racheld (rachel@unrequited.nu), July 13, 2001.

when the relatives want to force me to go outside and treat me like I'm two, when I have some sort of panic attack, when I feel rejected, ignored, when I feel any sort of pain even cramps, and when I second guess myself and what I've done with my life. pretty intense, yo!

-- Amber (starlight@wellyeah.org), July 15, 2001.

When I stop and take a look around in my life and my sould and realize it is empty. Sure I have friends, sure I have a life, but nothing is real and true and what it seems. regardless of how many things I have going on in my life and how many people I call my firends I am alone. That word...ALONE scares me because in reality we onnly have ourself. and with so many people sharing this planet it is scary to think I am.

-- WLB (windee27@hotmail.com), December 28, 2001.

--when i know the whole world is against me--when my best friends arent there for me--when i look at a knife and think about using it on myself--when i see happier people--when i put on fake smiles in the morning--when i see my ex--knowing my lifes not gonna get any better--taking depression medicine everyday--waking up every morning-- being around people--being used--not knowing the answers

-- Syd (sunshine1474@aol.com), January 31, 2002.