I first learned about the y2k problem a year ago. I began to prepare. Throughout the year as I frantically searched for answers, I became more and more fearful...fearful of the unknown. This fear distracted me from other activities. In retrospect, I realize that I missed the joy of many occasions due to worry about y2k. I do not regret having made preparations, and I suspect y2k is not over, but I have made a vow to never live in fear like this again. I am grateful for the people who were bold and brave enough to bring forth the severe potential of this issue. I think home preparations are essential. I went through hurricane Hugo and I did not have adequate preparations when we were without power, phone, and water for more than a week. So, I do not regret the preparations...but I do regret the fear. There were many nights when my loved ones tried to get my attention and I was too worried about doing y2k research to give them that attention. Well, the day before New Years Eve I had a death in my family. I lost a loved one and now as I try to work through this overwhelming grief I regret not taking the time for the precious moments that make life worth living. Go hug somebody you love, even if they think you were silly for being worried about y2k. Don't worry about whether you were right or wrong...it doesn't matter. Arguments and ego battles will only rob you of joy. Of course, I wish I could turn back the clock in my heart as easily as turning back a clock on a computer...but I can't. I guess my "belief system" crashed this weekend so I will try to get it back up and running. I guess the "fear virus" infected my system, so at least I know how to recognize the symptoms for the future. Any prayers are appreciated. Thank you.

~Dee

-- Dee (T1Colt556@aol.com), January 03, 2000